The year I began sixth grade was the year that changed my life. I transferred from Lexington Elementary to Fuerte Elementary school through what was a new math and science program. How I ever tested for this and passed, is still beyond me! I was so incredibly nervous to go to a new school. Fortunately, I knew one other 6th grader at Fuerte, Kristin Barry. She and I played softball together. She was our awesome catcher and I took her throw-downs at second base. It was a relief to know that there would be one friendly face in the sea of unfamiliar ones at my new school.
Kristin took it upon herself to introduce me to all of her friends. I was thankful to meet such a nice group of kids. They seemed to like me, and were friendly and accepting. Even so, you can imagine how surprised I was when one of the cutest and most popular boys asked me to “go” with him during the first week of school. I told Jeff Lapinski that I thought he was cute and very nice, but to please “ask me again in a month” so I could get to know him better. Jeff waited a month and when he asked me the second time, my answer was a delighted “Yes.”
My habit of journal writing began early in sixth grade, sparked by the loss of my parakeet, Tweetie, in the second week of school. I think my parents must have felt that I needed an outlet for my sadness for the loss of my pet and perhaps my insecurities in my new environment. My mention of Jeff is one of the very first entries in my journal:
I am in love with a handsome charming young man named Jeff. He’s a swell guy. I have plans to marry him when I get older. I think he has the same plans too. Hope it works out for me. I think it will.
Jeff’s plans for our relationship were not quite as dramatic and long term. So that I could look at him when we weren’t at school, he gave me this photo. His sweet message was a bit more realistic for a sixth grade romance:
I hope you like this picture as much as I like you. I hope we stay together for this whole year and maybe another.
We didn’t last that whole year, in fact. My journal tells me that we broke up in January of 1982 and that I was crushed. My suspicions were that he liked another girl. Jeff broke his leg in February that year. I wrote in my journal that I wanted to sign his cast and tell him that I still loved him and that I wanted to be boyfriend and girlfriend again. I don’t think I went through with that plan. I can’t for the life of me remember what I wrote on Jeff’s cast and am surprised I didn’t document what I actually wrote. Just a month later, David Kilpatrick showed up at Fuerte Elementary school and helped me get “totally over” Jeff. Is it surprising that I thought that David’s and my love would last forever? “David + Shanna = TLA.” I was always a hopeless romantic!
While we can look back on these days and giggle a bit about puppy love, I reflect on that time with a special gratitude for Jeff. Yes, Kristin played a big part in my being accepted into my group of friends, but Jeff’s request to go steady gave me an even bigger stamp of approval. I can’t imagine what my life would have turned out to be like had I not mingled with that group of friends, had I not caught the eye of Jeff Lapinski. The amazing group of people I grew up with was solidified in the sixth grade with the help of Kristin, with the title of Jeff’s girlfriend.
I have no idea what year this photo was taken. Given my hair style, I would have to say it was in my mid 20’s. I don’t even remember whose Halloween party this was, but I remember going to the party with Randy Close and Jeff Watts. I was delighted to see Tracie Klein there as well and a host of other friends from Valhalla. And our sweet Jeff. Handsome as ever, fun as always, and such an unexpected treat. He was a very bright light.
Jeff Lapinski impacted all of us, I believe, in similarly significant ways. We can remember only kindness and friendship, smiles, laughter and good times. He was every girl’s dream and every guy’s buddy. He personified good looks, intelligence, athleticism, great hair, a warm smile, and a sincere heart. And those legs! He had the most amazing legs! Half the girls in the school would watch boys soccer, not for the game, but to see Jeff’s legs in action! He was everything good and spectacular. He was that guy. The babe, the stud, the dude, the guy. He was, in my eyes, Superman. He is probably one of the only people that everyone from high school remembers, and remembers fondly.
At our twenty year reunion, it was odd to see Tommy Nielsen at the party without Jeff. He was one of the people I was really looking forward to seeing. I truly missed him being there. Little did we know, Jeff’s fight was just beginning. I was crushed when I heard the news. It wasn’t that Jeff and I had remained so tight through the years. It wasn’t even the regret that we hadn’t. It was this weird feeling like, “That’s not possible. Superman does NOT get cancer.” There was no wish that this happened to someone else. There was only the thought that Jeff simply did not deserve this challenge. It was the “of all people” sentiment. It forced me to examine my own mortality, “What the hell chance do the rest of us have if Jeff Lapinski gets cancer?”
As only Jeff could, though, he continued to make an impact on our lives with those amazing letters, full of positivity and high energy. Full of fight. Perhaps even a dash of Trojan spirit. I loved reading his letters and phrases like, “…getting on with life as normal.” I treasure the correspondence we shared during his battle. Full of love and appreciation, and even surprise that friends from childhood would lend their support. A humble man. I can only hope that he truly felt all of our love wrapped around him. With all of the horrible procedures he had to endure, he never complained, never worried, never made it seem like that big of a deal. Even in his last update to us all he said:
There it is. I’m not gonna lie, life has been easier than it is right now. BUT, I will get though this…..just have to grind a bit harder.
Just have to grind a bit harder. I think about this when I am faced with a task I don’t really enjoy. What do I have to complain about?
While I am not aware of every detail of this last month, I do know that Jeff fought very hard. He reminded us precisely how precious time is. We take for granted one day, one week, one month. But Jeff was fighting for exactly that. He wanted to live, wanted to be present. One more day, just to grind a bit harder. Even in Jeff’s final days, he made a significant impact on all of us. He showed us strength, leadership, will, guts, attitude, spirit, gratitude, grit, friendship, love and faith. In his death, he showed us how to live.
It’s still hard to believe that he is not physically with us. My heart is so heavy, as is yours, I’m sure. My heart hurts for his dear mother and father, for Scott and Lynn. And my heart breaks for his best friend, Tommy, who could not have been a more sturdy rock for Jeff. While I am so very, very sad that we have lost a most amazing man, I do believe that he will truly live on in all of us. We each have our own stories about that guy. He touched our lives. He left his footprint on our hearts.
Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated. ~Lamartine
To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget. ~Arundhati Roy
Jeff is love, he is larger than life and the most honorable of men. He is Superman. And I will forever miss, remember and love him.
Doug Naegele loves to travel too! – Using and abusing my recent photos, I’m here with Doug at the 20 year VHS reunion party! Doug and I had a great time sharing travel stories!
My 20 year high school reunion may have been a two weeks ago now, but I am still glowing in the joy of seeing old friends. It was so great to catch up with everyone, and even better that so many classmates are living fulfilling lives.
Doug, I learned, shares the same passion for all things foreign, and I really enjoyed chatting about our travels. It was nice to be able to describe the tiny town of Sapa in Vietnam and have someone nod their head in appreciation because they’ve been there, too.
It turns out Doug has traveled very extensively through SE Asis, South America, Russia, Mongolia, Tibet and China…for starters.
He and his wife, Edith, actually traveled the entire length of South America by local bus. This sounds so amazing and adventurous – I’m jealous! Doug gave me the link to the website they kept during their 2006 journey, and I’d like to pass that along to you. You can find incredible stories on their travel blog at www.dougandedith.com. Doug recommends story #26 Futbal in Lima. I give it a thumbs up, as well.
In case you are already bored with fall and longing for another summer vacation, you can take a terrific and intrepid (albeit virtual) journey with Doug and Edith! I’m having a great time following their trail!
On the Bright Side,
Meet Rae Meadows! – Rae and I are here at our 20 year high school reunion. Rae is a successful author who has just published her second book!
One of the things I was reminded of over and over again at my 20 year high school reunion is that I went to school with a TERRIFIC group of people. We were always good kids, took care of each other, had A LOT of fun, and cheered each other on.
Twenty years later, I have good reason to cheer for one of my favorite friends. Rae and I were very close in high school. In fact, she was pretty much my partner when I had my business, Hosting Helpers. I could always count on her to do a great job – we made a super team! We’ve remained in touch over the years, but it was particularly good to see her at the reunion last weekend. I’m so glad to have the chance to share her good news…
Rae has just published her second novel, No One Tells Everything.
Grace – a copy editor in her mid-thirties- drinks alone in the same bar every night, confides in her longtime bartender, and observes New York City life from the sidelines. But when a girl is found dead and a college student from Grace’s hometown is arrested for the murder, something within her stirs, and she embarks on an investigation into the crime – only to find that the mystery she is chasing is actually her own.
The book is receiving rave reviews, and Rae’s reputation and readership is rising. Now that I’m in L.A. and have some “me” time, I’m going to curl up with my own copy and get lost in the story. Can’t wait! Get your own copy at Amazon, who also carries Rae’s outstanding first novel, Calling Out.
On the Bright Side,
I’m still trying to get my head around the fact that my high school graduation was 20 years ago. Unbelievable! So it was with mixed emotions that I attended the festivities for Valhalla High School Class of 1988’s, 20 year reunion this weekend. Now that the big event has come and gone, I can only say how wonderful it was to see so many old friends, to embrace the people who I shared so many terrific memories with, and to see how absolutely fabulous we all look!!!
Holly and I attended the reunion events together. We’ve been friends since we were second sopranos in Ensemble! Love ya, Holly!
One event was not enough for the Class of ’88! On Friday, we enjoyed a pre-reunion party at Jose’s Courtroom in La Jolla. It happens to be owned by one of our classmates, Tigg Mitchell. My dearest friend Holly Paton Nelson and I arrived together, and were met by Tigg at the door. Once we stepped inside, it was a sea of familiar faces, smiles and high school memories. I was so overwhelmed from seeing so many old friends, I didn’t even take one picture! It was a very boisterous and exciting night.
Last night was the official reunion, held at a golf/country club near our high school in Jamul, California. At least twice as many people were at this event; many spouses came along for the ride. The evening was a whirlwind of chatting, laughing, hugging, picture taking, a bit of food & beverage, recalling fond memories and catching up on the present. I had a fantastic time!
This is Matt and Tim, who I went to kindergarten with at Lexington Elementary. Good to see them both.
It was so good to see Tracie – We had many fun Friday nights switching out of volleyball gear and getting ready for football. Always a fun and wonderful friend!
Anyone who has reached this milestone in their lives can understand when I say that it just doesn’t feel like 20 years have passed and none of us feel like we’re 38 years old! But I do feel very fortunate that I get to grow old with such an amazing group of friends. The Class of ’88 is totally awesome!
With the love of my life, David Kilpatrick.
Thanks everyone for yet another weekend filled with great memories!
On the Bright Side,